What. A. Year. I wish I could say 2017 was the most amazing year I’ve ever had, but that would be a lie. It did have some very high points. I did things that I’m supremely proud of, especially now. It had some downs too…but you know what? While those times were super crappy, I overcame and didn’t totally fall down the Black Hole of Sarah Self-Pity. Well, at least for very long. 🙂
So…as I’m sitting here a week into 2018, I’ve been actively thinking about what I want to accomplish this year. (I know, had I been on the ball I would have wrote this a week ago, but I’m in California with the fella right now and it’s hard to think of real life when you’re somewhat on vacation.)
I’ve got a lot of small to big goals that I want to do for the year, but I don’t really want to talk about those right now. I just want to talk about one. The big one. The one that all the other small and big goals feed into. More than anything, in 2018, I want to be PRESENT.
What does this mean? To me it means a variety of things. It means I want to engage the people in my life, the people I want in my life, to a much greater extent. I need to remove distractions and make time for them. (The reverse is also true, I need to NOT give time and presence to the people that are dragging me down and not on Team Sarah.) I need to be present and comfortable in MY skin. Last year I lost 35lbs. It was necessary. This year I need to focus more on refinement and learning where the contentment with my body lies. There are a few things that I want to learn and perfect. I need to give those hobbies my time and my focus. I have a bad habit of letting life and circumstances control me. Lastly, I need to be present with my emotions and actions. I need to stop saying “sorry” for things that are not my fault, just because it’s my default mode. If I feel a certain way its ok for me to feel it.
I have no doubt this year is going to be hard for me emotionally. Things are happening that are just…sad. But I really hope there are highs too. I’m praying that I can make my own happies. 🙂
Oh, and I also hope to blog more. But that is neither here nor there. Ha!
TODAY I LOVE: sunny days, coastal breeze in my hair, and the smell of the trees