2019 in review

A very dear friend of mine, Willie, shared this with me after one of my most raw posts this past year. I've kept this as a reminder that I vowed to be real and not fake, no matter the cost. It's special to me. I was almost dreading writing this post. I've done it every …

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the calm and the storm

Flying over a thunderstorm outside of Dallas this past October I think I've stared at the "Add title" part of this post for a good 20 minutes. I just finished writing a very mopey post about memories and pain. It's still in my drafts but I'll probably never post it. I'm sure everyone is tired …

someone has turned on the lights.

My grandmother just had cataract surgery in both of her eyes.  After she got out of the surgery she immediately said, "It is like someone has turned on all the lights!"  I love that.  It is also how I feel right now.  Now that the emotional and dark cloud of April has passed, now that …

the flash drive

Be softer with you. You are a breathing thing. A memory to someone. A home to a life. -Nayyirah Waheed Today has been hard.  I guess if I'm being honest, the moment the calendar rolled over to April it has been one tough day after another.  April is the month that my ex-husband remarries. While …

Choosing joy.

 I'm gonna be candid.  It's been a hell of a few days.  I know I go into a lot of things here but all the details that sent me off the deep end are going to remain in my secret journal not my public one.  When there are other people involved it gets tricky and …

really moving on

You guys, I really debated if I was going to post this one or not.  It's likely too personal, too raw, and too real.  (It's been sitting in my drafts for days and days.)  But you know what?  I decided to hit publish.  Because like I said several posts ago, not every day is bright …

you know what? not everyday is great.

It's really easy to only write about happy things.  I like writing about accomplishments.  I get downright giddy sharing a life hack that helped me.  It is not fun, however, exposing the underbelly of emotion.  The emotions that bubble up and catch you unawares.  The emotions that make you crawl into yourself and hide until …

brand new

I'm here.  I did it.  I stopped blogging quite some time ago because life just got HARD.  Overwhelming.  Not only that, I tried to make my blog something that it wasn't and it just added more stress than I needed.  So I'm beginning again. The other day I tried to figure out exactly when I …